Decisions and Life

Holy Geez!!! I really, really  need to learn how to make decisions and stick with them. But, I guess it's better to be picky and satisfied than passive and not. There have been lots of these moments in my life recently...

First and foremost of these decisions was the decision to go to China in August of 2012 with the International Language Program. The first change was that I was going to be short of money, so I was going to go to China in February of 2013. But then I just couldn't feel satisfied with China. I have never really wanted to go there and I just couldn't get excited about it. But then Lithuania was added as a country where ILP goes and I snatched the last spot available for January of 2013. And I couldn't be more excited! It's been almost a week since that decision has been made and I was never this freaking excited about going to China!!! I'M GOING TO EUROPE! FINLAND, NORWAY, UKRAINE, LITHUANIA, THE BALTIC, and maybe (hopefully) LONDON AND PARIS!!!

The second of these decisions had to do with my summer vacation to Idaho in July. Initially the plan was for my family to go out the end of June and for me to come out on the 4th of July and to be there for the rest of that week, because that worked with my work schedule. But then I decided that I hate my job and that I am ready to quit. Like now. But that would be the unprofessional. So I can't. Anyways, I decided I could just quit my job and go to Idaho with my family and then come back in July and find a new one. And pay $150 to change my plane ticket. And work a week less and lose almost $400. So it was almost a $600 decision and the risk of not being able to find another job. So, this decision is one that stayed as the original plan. I will be going to Idaho on July 4th and it is as yet undecided whether or not I will be finding another job.

One more decision that I wish I had the capability to take back was that of not going back to school next year. I wish I could. I wish I had the money. But I don't. Oh, well.

So, during my 12 hour shifts at work, I have a lot of time to think. And to sing songs in my head. I have found 2 songs that have quickly become my very favorites and have basically changed my life.

• #1) Man on a Tractor by Rodney Atkins-and it goes a little bit like this
•  "It's not about living another man's life, it's about living your own differently"
• #2) Sweet Serendipity by Lee Dewyze:
•  "And I'm doing just fine, always landing on my feet. In the nic of time and by the skin of my teeth. I ain't gonna stress cause the worst ain't happened yet. Something's watching over me!"